[00:00.790 --> 00:02.530] It's been a long day. [00:03.170 --> 00:04.730] It's been a long two days. [00:05.970 --> 00:06.370] Yeah. [00:06.870 --> 00:12.530] I didn't think I was going to... I didn't think I'd be able to get through this talk because there's so much stuff and I took a lot of stuff out. [00:13.170 --> 00:18.970] But that was like if I'd given the talk at 8 o'clock in the morning, but now it's probably finished really fast. [00:19.830 --> 00:21.430] Aphantasia, a personal reflection. [00:22.070 --> 00:24.810] Disclaimer, first off, this is all speculative. [00:25.190 --> 00:26.590] Just my opinion about me. [00:26.830 --> 00:28.310] So I can't be wrong, right? [00:28.430 --> 00:30.230] So it's just all about me. [00:31.770 --> 00:34.370] There's a lot of bad speculation out there on the web. [00:34.550 --> 00:40.470] You know, the dark way you go out there and it's like, okay, my talk is just about me and my personal opinion about myself. [00:41.210 --> 00:47.250] And I started looking at it on the web and it's like all these people said they had aphantasia and is saying weird stuff. [00:47.410 --> 00:49.230] And it's like, no, I don't buy that at all. [00:49.830 --> 00:51.890] So I didn't go, but it's just me. [00:52.030 --> 01:00.110] And then it's like, I also did not get any of the AIs to research their deep research and come back with all this medical stuff and all that kind of stuff. [01:00.730 --> 01:01.770] No, I didn't do that. [01:01.990 --> 01:02.890] You know, I haven't done that. [01:02.970 --> 01:06.910] So I don't know what kind of medical research or research or anything on this is. [01:08.130 --> 01:09.290] Session synopsis. [01:10.070 --> 01:11.870] Yeah, a little background, a little background. [01:11.930 --> 01:16.110] So it's like, I always wanted to like write my history because I'm kind of old now. [01:16.250 --> 01:16.610] I'm 69. [01:16.610 --> 01:21.390] And about my history is with hacking and all this kind of stuff. [01:21.750 --> 01:22.830] But I can't write. [01:23.010 --> 01:23.770] I'm a terrible writer. [01:23.990 --> 01:25.590] It's like, so I couldn't publish it for 20th Sunday. [01:25.710 --> 01:26.090] It's terrible. [01:26.370 --> 01:28.990] And then all this AI came out. [01:29.110 --> 01:29.730] I said, great. [01:29.950 --> 01:33.270] So I can take that and write my biography and everything. [01:33.570 --> 01:35.610] And it's, you know, it's terrible. [01:35.850 --> 01:37.170] Just, it was absolutely terrible. [01:37.770 --> 01:43.370] So then it was like, so maybe I could come up with something and present at HOPE, which I've never been to before. [01:43.910 --> 01:46.150] And but it's like two years, every two years. [01:46.510 --> 01:47.570] I can't wait that long. [01:47.970 --> 01:49.550] And then they change it to every year. [01:49.670 --> 01:51.290] I go, okay, maybe I can do it this year. [01:51.410 --> 01:52.150] Maybe that's a sign. [01:52.150 --> 01:54.710] And so, but I didn't know what to talk about. [01:54.870 --> 01:57.150] And it's like, hmm, maybe a Fantasia. [01:57.310 --> 01:59.490] But I didn't think a Fantasia is really a hacker topic. [01:59.970 --> 02:09.090] So I asked a couple of the AIs, like Grok and ChatGPT, if that would be a good topic to talk about in their patronizing way. [02:09.290 --> 02:10.870] They both said, yeah, that's great. [02:11.010 --> 02:11.790] That's absolutely great. [02:12.110 --> 02:13.150] I go, huh. [02:13.610 --> 02:14.670] I'm so sure about that. [02:14.930 --> 02:20.490] And then I tell them, it's like, okay, if it's great, write me up a letter to apply and write me up a synopsis. [02:20.630 --> 02:21.630] And that's what this is. [02:22.650 --> 02:23.990] So this is not me. [02:24.210 --> 02:25.670] You know, I didn't, I didn't write this. [02:25.890 --> 02:29.550] You can tell by the hyphens in here. [02:29.670 --> 02:30.730] I don't write hyphens. [02:30.890 --> 02:32.230] There are a lot of hyphens in there. [02:32.330 --> 02:33.050] That's not me. [02:33.190 --> 02:34.610] Except some of the stuff at the bottom. [02:34.830 --> 02:36.370] This is kind of my words down here. [02:36.550 --> 02:38.330] The rest of this is not. [02:38.570 --> 02:41.770] I mean, I wouldn't have put all that stuff in there, but they said that. [02:42.430 --> 02:47.270] And I wanted to add this stuff to it because I'm going to relate a Fantasia to AI. [02:47.270 --> 02:52.250] Because a lot has happened in the AI world in the last seven to ten days. [02:53.050 --> 02:54.190] And I've got to vent. [02:54.410 --> 02:56.910] I mean, I come here, I've got to watch the time because I've got to vent. [02:57.230 --> 03:02.130] So basically, instead of talking just about me and a Fantasia, I'm splitting this into two parts. [03:02.850 --> 03:06.430] Part one is going to be my journey with a Fantasia, like I talked about. [03:06.430 --> 03:12.590] And the second one is going to be part two is going to be a Fantasia hacking and AI with some venting in there. [03:12.970 --> 03:15.710] So I've got to keep watching the time. [03:16.330 --> 03:17.170] I've got to hit... [03:17.890 --> 03:20.050] Finish part one in 25 minutes, probably will. [03:20.190 --> 03:22.650] Part one, my journey with a Fantasia. [03:23.370 --> 03:26.090] So this is what it wrote in this presentation, Earl. [03:26.170 --> 03:27.070] It just seems kind of weird. [03:27.070 --> 03:38.710] I will say that when I ran this by the AIs, they both told me that for my name on the program, I should not say Dr. Earl Brown. [03:39.250 --> 03:46.330] I thought, well, I don't know, because at the time I thought I was going to talk about the medical aspects of, you know, a Fantasia and all that kind of stuff, which I'm not. [03:46.670 --> 03:50.610] And so I put it in there, but they told me not to, but I did it anyway. [03:50.610 --> 03:52.290] And now I kind of regret that. [03:52.290 --> 03:58.230] But I've been, I am a pathologist and I've been a teacher for, yeah, actually 38 years. [03:59.110 --> 04:00.270] Who am I? [04:00.930 --> 04:05.510] This is me, professor of pathology, Quillen College of Medicine and ETSU. [04:05.630 --> 04:07.990] That's ETSU right there, aerial view. [04:08.330 --> 04:09.010] That's ETSU. [04:09.270 --> 04:10.730] That's John City is right there. [04:10.870 --> 04:13.970] It's about 90 miles north, northeast of Knoxville. [04:15.590 --> 04:16.470] Oh, that's me. [04:16.650 --> 04:18.430] This is not AI generated. [04:18.690 --> 04:19.970] This is not AI generated. [04:19.970 --> 04:21.330] This was done by a student of mine. [04:21.330 --> 04:22.750] About 15 years ago. [04:23.150 --> 04:24.510] I was a lot younger back then. [04:24.630 --> 04:25.910] Okay, so about 15 years ago. [04:26.090 --> 04:27.950] And that's me teaching in the auditorium. [04:28.090 --> 04:30.950] And this is actually a blood smear. [04:31.110 --> 04:32.410] Actually, it's a bone marrow smear. [04:32.830 --> 04:33.730] So I'm an MD. [04:33.870 --> 04:34.550] I'm a pathologist. [04:34.710 --> 04:36.830] And I am a hematopathologist. [04:37.550 --> 04:38.530] Oh, more about me. [04:38.530 --> 04:39.450] That's not enough about me. [04:40.670 --> 04:43.470] I grew up, well, part of in Lake Charles, Louisiana. [04:43.770 --> 04:48.830] I went to college there at McNeese State University in 73 to 77. [04:49.810 --> 04:51.150] That's a long time ago. [04:51.410 --> 04:55.270] The reason I say that is because I don't really have any regrets. [04:55.750 --> 05:01.110] The only regret I have, maybe, is... Oh, by the way, this is a great book. [05:01.250 --> 05:02.810] Hackers, Heroes, this is a great book. [05:03.050 --> 05:05.070] Talked about hacking in the early years and stuff like that. [05:05.270 --> 05:07.990] This discusses early MIT artificial intelligence. [05:08.850 --> 05:13.690] If I... I wish that I could have gone to MIT back in the 70s. [05:13.690 --> 05:14.750] Wow, that would have been something. [05:14.930 --> 05:15.610] That would have been something. [05:15.750 --> 05:18.170] All the hacking started, really started coming to fruition. [05:18.690 --> 05:21.930] But my circumstance, that would never have happened. [05:22.290 --> 05:25.950] I didn't have the means to even contemplate that. [05:26.090 --> 05:27.170] But that would have been a kind of cool thing. [05:27.670 --> 05:29.790] Said I ended up in medicine, L.C. [05:29.830 --> 05:30.490] School of Shreveport. [05:30.890 --> 05:32.070] Medicine in Shreveport. [05:32.750 --> 05:33.610] I was there. [05:33.990 --> 05:36.690] Medical School of 77 to 81, residency to 85. [05:37.090 --> 05:39.690] And I stayed there a couple of years at the VA to 87. [05:40.030 --> 05:50.890] The reason I say that's important, the reason I mention that, is because about that time, in my own mind, there's an overlap, but it's not really an overlap, with id, id software, you know. [05:51.010 --> 05:53.770] So Doomguy, this is John Romero, John Carmack. [05:54.250 --> 05:57.610] Id got its start, sort of, in Shreveport. [05:57.950 --> 06:02.850] Supposedly in a carport of a house in Shreveport, but it really didn't happen that way. [06:02.990 --> 06:04.590] But it was close, it was close. [06:04.810 --> 06:05.830] This actually is a good book. [06:06.590 --> 06:07.450] It's a good book. [06:07.730 --> 06:10.690] So, 4.0, it actually drew this timeline. [06:10.690 --> 06:13.430] It was before the new changes, when it got all bad. [06:13.770 --> 06:14.790] The last week. [06:15.190 --> 06:15.810] It did this thing. [06:15.930 --> 06:16.550] This, yeah, user. [06:16.770 --> 06:17.310] I'm the user. [06:17.770 --> 06:18.910] I'm at Shreveport there. [06:19.270 --> 06:22.810] And John Romero actually came a couple of years earlier, before he did software. [06:23.110 --> 06:25.150] But it's not, not quite. [06:25.290 --> 06:26.970] But in my mind, I like to think, wow. [06:27.470 --> 06:29.030] If things would have just been a little bit different. [06:30.190 --> 06:31.150] My interests. [06:31.650 --> 06:31.750] Huh. [06:32.210 --> 06:33.170] Because this is about me. [06:33.550 --> 06:34.030] Books. [06:34.290 --> 06:36.030] I started reading a lot of books lately. [06:36.470 --> 06:37.210] Just because. [06:37.830 --> 06:39.210] This is all you need to know about me. [06:39.450 --> 06:41.510] I read this over the summer. [06:42.010 --> 06:43.390] 4,000 pages. [06:43.610 --> 06:43.910] My goodness. [06:44.250 --> 06:45.490] Best series ever. [06:45.650 --> 06:46.590] Dungeon Crawler Carl. [06:47.330 --> 06:48.690] Yeah, it's really good. [06:48.990 --> 06:49.530] It's really good. [06:49.710 --> 06:51.950] I thought it was going to end on book seven. [06:51.950 --> 06:54.670] But now, now I've got to wait for book eight. [06:54.670 --> 06:55.810] And I've got to reread seven. [06:55.970 --> 06:57.530] Because a lot of things that's happening in that book. [06:58.070 --> 06:59.070] Best book ever. [06:59.250 --> 07:00.370] So I read this over the summer. [07:00.650 --> 07:01.850] And I thought, hmm. [07:02.730 --> 07:04.750] You know, let's talk about, you know, Grok. [07:04.850 --> 07:05.590] And all this kind of stuff. [07:06.110 --> 07:07.170] Stranger in a strange land. [07:07.310 --> 07:08.890] Because Elon's invented Grok. [07:09.070 --> 07:10.870] And then he named, you know, Valentine. [07:11.030 --> 07:13.350] His little, his avatar thing. [07:13.530 --> 07:15.610] And I thought, I'm going to reread that book. [07:15.750 --> 07:17.190] Because it came out in 1961. [07:17.930 --> 07:19.590] I think I read it in late sixties. [07:19.670 --> 07:20.770] And I kind of remember. [07:20.970 --> 07:23.010] I thought Grok, the term was cool. [07:23.010 --> 07:25.350] And I thought the book was good. [07:25.570 --> 07:27.150] So I reread it. [07:27.250 --> 07:29.050] Or tried to reread it a couple weeks ago. [07:29.470 --> 07:30.130] Oh my God. [07:30.670 --> 07:31.750] Worst sci-fi ever. [07:32.050 --> 07:33.610] That book is so bad. [07:33.830 --> 07:34.410] I don't know. [07:34.510 --> 07:35.110] So bad. [07:35.830 --> 07:37.110] I couldn't get through it. [07:37.170 --> 07:37.590] Oh my God. [07:37.670 --> 07:38.650] It did not age well. [07:39.070 --> 07:40.870] I don't know what the hell Elon was thinking. [07:41.170 --> 07:41.310] Anyway. [07:41.770 --> 07:43.170] Oh, the term looks bad. [07:43.490 --> 07:44.870] The book is bad. [07:45.050 --> 07:45.530] It's... [07:45.530 --> 07:46.090] Oh my God. [07:46.690 --> 07:47.490] I don't know. [07:48.030 --> 07:49.390] And I thought it was good. [07:49.510 --> 07:51.410] Because like Stranger in a Strange Land. [07:51.410 --> 07:53.110] It's kind of like I felt and stuff. [07:53.510 --> 07:56.350] But the book's got nothing to do with Stranger in a Strange Land. [07:56.790 --> 07:57.510] He wasn't. [07:57.630 --> 07:58.350] Michael, the guy. [07:58.470 --> 07:58.790] Valentine. [07:59.350 --> 08:01.350] He wasn't a stranger in a strange land. [08:01.670 --> 08:02.930] That was not supposed to be the title. [08:03.030 --> 08:04.270] It's got nothing to do with it anyway. [08:04.530 --> 08:05.910] I do like video games. [08:06.290 --> 08:08.410] Best video game ever is Baba is You. [08:09.050 --> 08:09.930] See where I played it? [08:10.730 --> 08:12.190] Best video game ever. [08:12.650 --> 08:13.210] Check it out. [08:13.330 --> 08:17.230] If you don't remember anything from this talk, check out Baba is You. [08:17.230 --> 08:18.630] And I'm going to talk about it in a little bit. [08:19.310 --> 08:21.270] My journey with Aphantasia. [08:21.370 --> 08:22.110] That's what I'm talking about. [08:22.530 --> 08:23.950] What is Aphantasia? [08:24.110 --> 08:27.110] Well, stupid AI wrote it in the synopsis. [08:27.250 --> 08:28.710] So I took away my thing. [08:28.910 --> 08:29.030] Yeah. [08:30.150 --> 08:30.590] Aphantasia. [08:30.750 --> 08:32.630] The inability to form minimal images is a little number. [08:32.750 --> 08:33.390] Blah, blah, blah, blah. [08:33.730 --> 08:36.170] One to four, say about 2% of the population. [08:36.890 --> 08:37.730] Who knew? [08:38.490 --> 08:42.710] Do I have Aphantasia to ask yourself if you knew it or something like that? [08:43.510 --> 08:47.370] Well, the classic thing is close your eyes and picture an apple. [08:47.850 --> 08:51.290] And then have somebody tell them that and have them describe the apple. [08:53.890 --> 08:56.430] And I don't... that's one of the tests. [08:56.570 --> 08:58.270] I really don't do this test anymore. [08:58.270 --> 08:58.990] I'm just telling you. [08:59.270 --> 09:03.690] Because when I found out of Aphantasia, I told this test to several people. [09:04.030 --> 09:06.510] And then they would start describing the apple. [09:06.750 --> 09:08.370] And then I say, I can't see anything. [09:08.630 --> 09:10.790] And they go, well, I can't see anything either. [09:10.790 --> 09:13.350] And then we get in arguments and all kinds of stuff. [09:13.530 --> 09:13.690] You know? [09:14.610 --> 09:15.330] I'm here. [09:15.330 --> 09:15.950] I'm here. [09:16.170 --> 09:18.110] So, I don't know what's going on here. [09:18.430 --> 09:20.550] I just... I have no concept. [09:20.550 --> 09:22.270] I thought I was totally normal. [09:22.850 --> 09:23.570] I didn't... [09:23.570 --> 09:27.230] I thought when people said they see images in their head, I thought it was metaphorical. [09:27.790 --> 09:30.690] And then a couple of years ago, I found out, like, no, that's a real thing. [09:30.910 --> 09:32.030] And it's like, weird. [09:32.150 --> 09:32.850] That's really weird. [09:33.470 --> 09:34.570] It's so weird. [09:35.910 --> 09:40.230] People, I can't even imagine what that's like, to close your eyes and see images. [09:40.630 --> 09:41.210] I can't... [09:41.210 --> 09:41.930] It's... [09:41.930 --> 09:42.510] I can't... [09:42.510 --> 09:43.470] I can't even imagine it. [09:43.870 --> 09:44.810] Yeah, this is what I see. [09:44.910 --> 09:45.470] That's what I see. [09:45.570 --> 09:46.350] I close my eyes. [09:47.030 --> 09:47.910] That's what I see. [09:48.090 --> 09:49.130] I can't do anything differently. [09:49.710 --> 09:51.770] Yeah, problems talking about Aphantasia. [09:52.030 --> 09:53.270] They get really mad. [09:53.430 --> 09:54.710] Because I say, I can't see anything. [09:54.870 --> 09:56.190] They say, well, I don't really see anything. [09:56.710 --> 10:00.030] And then I say, okay, picture a beach scene. [10:00.250 --> 10:01.430] They have to tell me they couldn't see it. [10:01.550 --> 10:02.710] And I say, picture a beach scene. [10:02.770 --> 10:04.230] And they start describing the beach scene. [10:04.630 --> 10:07.530] And then I say, picture a boat on the water. [10:07.770 --> 10:08.530] And they go, yeah. [10:08.690 --> 10:09.330] I say, can you see it? [10:09.410 --> 10:09.830] They say, yeah. [10:10.150 --> 10:11.850] I say, make the boat move. [10:12.150 --> 10:12.970] And can you see that? [10:13.030 --> 10:13.390] They go, yeah. [10:13.490 --> 10:14.110] And I say, whoa. [10:14.870 --> 10:16.790] So it's like, they don't have Aphantasia. [10:17.190 --> 10:23.790] I think for somebody to really have Aphantasia that's never heard of it, when you first describe it to them, they're going to freak out. [10:24.130 --> 10:24.750] That's what happened to me. [10:24.750 --> 10:25.590] It's like, wait, what? [10:25.930 --> 10:28.590] And it's just totally foreign to you. [10:28.710 --> 10:31.770] So if they don't have that reaction, probably don't have aphantasia. [10:32.170 --> 10:41.650] That being said, if I was really going to look for aphantasia, I'd make some kind of form, you know, a bunch of different questions, not just one and kind of have things plus or minus in there. [10:41.750 --> 10:42.590] But I'm not going to do that. [10:43.170 --> 10:43.530] Yeah. [10:43.730 --> 10:44.510] Moving images. [10:44.690 --> 10:45.090] Who knew? [10:45.790 --> 10:47.150] I can't even imagine that. [10:47.270 --> 10:47.650] Oh, my God. [10:48.850 --> 10:56.090] First time when I found out I had aphantasia, first thing that I thought of, I mean, right off the bat was this Cartman clip. [10:56.650 --> 10:58.110] Cartman doesn't have aphantasia. [10:58.230 --> 11:00.030] That's the one of the clips I was going to show if I have time. [11:00.790 --> 11:02.230] It's like, I thought of that right away. [11:02.430 --> 11:09.050] So then I asked, I asked 4.0, GPT 4.0, if Cartman has aphantasia. [11:09.390 --> 11:12.970] And it searched, you know, like 90 websites in two seconds. [11:12.970 --> 11:14.950] And it came back and said, no, he doesn't have. [11:15.050 --> 11:16.250] There's no evidence and all that kind of stuff. [11:16.490 --> 11:18.190] I asked Grok 3 at the time. [11:18.490 --> 11:20.670] Same thing, you know, 100 websites in two seconds. [11:20.830 --> 11:21.150] I said, no. [11:21.150 --> 11:24.190] I go, well, what about the Helen Keller episode? [11:24.330 --> 11:25.250] I told him the episode. [11:25.970 --> 11:31.750] And Grok 3 said, well, it does kind of maybe relate to it, but no, we can't be sure. [11:32.150 --> 11:35.530] And then I asked 4.0 and it said, yeah, that proves he doesn't have aphantasia. [11:35.910 --> 11:46.090] So it's like, to me, that's kind of, I kind of just meta illustrates the whole point of the talk and that when I get to the end of that AI, like I knew right away. [11:46.450 --> 11:51.190] I mean, when I found out about aphantasia, my first thought was Cartman, because I knew about it and stuff like that. [11:51.290 --> 11:52.270] And I related it to it. [11:52.270 --> 11:53.790] I knew instantly like that. [11:54.030 --> 11:59.090] We asked this to an AI and they can search the web block and stuff and they couldn't find it. [11:59.850 --> 12:05.330] I guess if I told them to look at every episode, maybe they come back in 12 hours and tell me yes or something. [12:05.470 --> 12:05.750] I don't know. [12:06.870 --> 12:08.690] Question for A does, yeah, that's what I said. [12:09.670 --> 12:10.210] Question here. [12:10.290 --> 12:11.430] So I would make a question here. [12:11.590 --> 12:12.250] Okay, that's fine. [12:12.970 --> 12:15.410] When did I first learn about aphantasia? [12:15.610 --> 12:18.630] It seems like it was on yesterday, but it was a couple of years now. [12:19.310 --> 12:22.070] It was during, it was about the time of the World Chess Championship of 2018. [12:23.350 --> 12:26.390] Because about 2018, I found out that there was this thing called Twitch. [12:26.870 --> 12:27.810] Wow, Twitch. [12:28.110 --> 12:31.790] And they were streaming live all the World Chess Championship. [12:32.030 --> 12:32.910] I'm going, oh my God. [12:33.490 --> 12:40.670] The last time I saw that was back in the Fisher-Sabaski thing, where it was only sort of live on PBS, you know. [12:40.670 --> 12:43.670] But I'm like, oh my God, this is really, this is fascinating. [12:43.690 --> 12:45.310] So I started watching all that stuff. [12:45.510 --> 12:53.090] Then I noticed, this is a Karu Nakamura, that they'd always look into the, away from the board and do all this thinking. [12:53.310 --> 12:55.350] And I'm going, what the heck is that? [12:56.050 --> 12:57.890] I didn't know about aphantasia yet. [12:58.010 --> 12:58.970] I'm going, what is that? [12:58.970 --> 12:59.930] I don't understand what they're doing. [13:00.230 --> 13:09.770] And then on chess.com, they talked about something where a blindfold chess and you got a picture of the board in your head and be able to move pieces around. [13:09.770 --> 13:11.590] And I'm going, I can't do that. [13:11.710 --> 13:12.550] I don't know what they're talking about. [13:12.670 --> 13:13.930] I absolutely don't know what they're talking about. [13:14.190 --> 13:17.670] And that was about the time that I found out about aphantasia. [13:17.670 --> 13:19.230] And I go, well, that's not fair. [13:19.590 --> 13:21.310] I can't, I can't see the board at all. [13:22.110 --> 13:24.450] And soon after that, Queen's Gambit came out. [13:24.630 --> 13:30.890] Well, she could actually apparently see the chess board, not in her mind's eye, but in the real space. [13:31.330 --> 13:33.070] Apparently there's a name for that, right? [13:33.550 --> 13:37.070] It's called Prose Fantasia, where you can see it outside. [13:37.450 --> 13:38.270] That's crazy. [13:38.650 --> 13:41.770] So this is aphantasia in the blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, hyper. [13:41.910 --> 13:42.610] You can see it really real. [13:42.730 --> 13:43.510] This is me over here. [13:43.690 --> 13:45.490] But apparently some people nodding their heads. [13:45.570 --> 13:47.490] They can see it out outside of the thing. [13:48.110 --> 13:50.010] That being said, I'm not going to talk about any of that. [13:50.150 --> 13:54.410] I'm not going to talk about not being able to hear and hear voices and sounds in your head. [13:54.410 --> 13:55.670] I'm just talking about me. [13:56.490 --> 13:57.130] It's aphantasia. [13:57.930 --> 13:58.330] Okay. [13:58.590 --> 13:58.890] I will. [13:59.050 --> 14:00.750] This is what ChatGPT's did or something like. [14:01.150 --> 14:01.950] Both good and bad. [14:02.070 --> 14:03.350] I never experienced chess, piano. [14:03.770 --> 14:05.150] Drawing, reading, memory and learning. [14:05.310 --> 14:05.610] Blah, blah, blah. [14:05.750 --> 14:07.590] Then I got to talk about Hacker. [14:07.810 --> 14:09.870] I got to vent about AI if we have time. [14:10.550 --> 14:11.850] The good and the bad with aphantasia. [14:11.950 --> 14:12.510] The bad. [14:13.190 --> 14:13.590] Chess. [14:13.910 --> 14:14.190] Yeah. [14:14.470 --> 14:15.430] So what's up with that chess? [14:15.930 --> 14:18.510] Do chess players rely on mental imagery? [14:18.990 --> 14:23.910] I don't know anybody that really plays chess around who I am or plays it good enough to ask them. [14:24.010 --> 14:25.790] I mean, if somebody's here, that's really good. [14:25.790 --> 14:26.850] And you can tell me. [14:26.990 --> 14:28.090] I would like to know. [14:28.690 --> 14:29.730] They have to be. [14:29.830 --> 14:31.170] I mean, they're looking away and stuff like that. [14:31.610 --> 14:32.830] But I don't get it. [14:32.890 --> 14:33.410] So I asked. [14:33.510 --> 14:33.630] Yeah. [14:35.530 --> 14:38.590] So none of the AIs helped me put together this talk. [14:38.830 --> 14:39.850] This is all me. [14:40.130 --> 14:40.830] It's all me. [14:40.910 --> 14:41.550] My thing right here. [14:41.730 --> 14:45.070] It's every once in a while, I ask them something and I'll cite it down here. [14:45.190 --> 14:46.490] So I asked 4O about it. [14:46.630 --> 14:48.430] And yeah, you can trust everything to say, right? [14:49.090 --> 14:53.110] So it says most chess player with visual rely on. [14:53.310 --> 14:53.490] Yeah. [14:53.490 --> 14:53.570] Yeah. [14:53.870 --> 14:56.590] So 4O said, yeah, most players do that. [14:56.710 --> 14:57.190] And I go, okay. [14:57.610 --> 14:58.610] I don't get it. [14:58.730 --> 15:02.590] But then it says like, people with A-Fantasia can't do it. [15:03.390 --> 15:04.470] Pattern based knowledge. [15:04.710 --> 15:08.750] So that kind of sucked because I'm getting to the retirement age. [15:08.750 --> 15:12.990] And I thought, well, I can retire and start spending a lot of time. [15:13.110 --> 15:13.990] I got a lot of time to kill. [15:14.270 --> 15:16.030] I can play a lot of chess and online chess. [15:16.190 --> 15:16.430] That would be great. [15:16.670 --> 15:18.290] Then I found out about this A-Fantasia thing. [15:18.350 --> 15:19.270] And I said, it's not fair. [15:19.770 --> 15:20.470] It's not fair. [15:20.470 --> 15:23.990] I'm not going to spend all my time trying to do this when people can see the board and I can't. [15:24.290 --> 15:24.950] So I was like, don't. [15:25.450 --> 15:29.950] Anyway, maybe they should do like different categories for the chess tournaments. [15:30.730 --> 15:32.590] A-Fantasia people and everybody else. [15:33.270 --> 15:35.290] But then how you know that people have A-Fantasia. [15:35.550 --> 15:36.890] I do like to play a piano. [15:37.090 --> 15:38.410] I'm kind of, I'm not good at it. [15:38.510 --> 15:40.050] But I do like to play at the piano. [15:41.330 --> 15:45.130] And especially nowadays where you can get any kind of sheet music on any song you want, stuff like that. [15:46.010 --> 15:49.950] But my question is, do pianists, I play about an hour a day or something. [15:50.130 --> 15:51.790] Do pianists rely on mental imagery? [15:52.470 --> 15:53.330] I don't know. [15:53.370 --> 15:56.310] Because it's like, I'm trying to memorize all these pieces. [15:56.630 --> 15:58.850] And a long time ago, it was muscle memory. [15:59.350 --> 16:00.410] And that's not good. [16:00.410 --> 16:04.130] Because you rely on muscle memory, you can screw up really bad. [16:04.570 --> 16:06.590] I can touch type really fast. [16:06.730 --> 16:08.850] But I have no idea what the keyboard looks like. [16:08.890 --> 16:09.850] I don't know if that's normal or anything. [16:10.070 --> 16:12.950] If you ask me where a certain character is on the keyboard, I have no idea. [16:13.470 --> 16:14.250] Not a clue. [16:14.430 --> 16:14.910] Not a clue. [16:15.270 --> 16:16.410] But I just muscle memory. [16:16.670 --> 16:19.010] So it's like, you can't do muscle memory. [16:19.010 --> 16:21.850] I'm just guessing because I am not a talented musician. [16:22.110 --> 16:23.690] But you can't do muscle memory. [16:23.930 --> 16:28.230] So do these people that are really good, do they memorize the score? [16:28.230 --> 16:31.390] Do they see the keyboard in front of them? [16:31.930 --> 16:32.810] I don't know. [16:32.950 --> 16:33.550] So I asked, yes. [16:33.750 --> 16:34.810] Oh, this is Google AI. [16:35.310 --> 16:37.410] I said, yeah. [16:37.690 --> 16:42.070] So they do visualize the score and the keyboard. [16:42.450 --> 16:43.610] I'm going, huh. [16:43.970 --> 16:45.950] That would make things a lot easier. [16:46.310 --> 16:50.830] Instead, I got to memorize the key patterns and stuff. [16:50.830 --> 16:55.530] And it's like, well, that's a lot harder than if I could see the darn keyboard in my memory. [16:56.050 --> 16:56.330] Mm-mm. [16:57.230 --> 16:59.190] So this is 4-0. [16:59.410 --> 17:01.650] So 4-0 agreed with them. [17:01.750 --> 17:02.210] So like that. [17:02.610 --> 17:05.450] And then it said for us with a Fantasia. [17:05.970 --> 17:06.230] Yeah. [17:06.930 --> 17:07.830] We're having problems. [17:08.630 --> 17:09.190] That's not fair. [17:09.930 --> 17:10.970] What about drawing? [17:12.990 --> 17:15.230] Do artists rely on mental imagery? [17:15.530 --> 17:15.850] Okay. [17:15.890 --> 17:17.730] I'm not a good drawer at all. [17:18.050 --> 17:18.310] Not at all. [17:19.570 --> 17:22.650] My daughter from my first wife, she's like really good. [17:22.790 --> 17:23.490] She's like really good. [17:23.690 --> 17:24.670] Didn't get it from me. [17:24.830 --> 17:26.970] But do artists rely on mental imagery? [17:27.330 --> 17:28.970] So I asked, this is 4-0. [17:29.370 --> 17:31.090] So yeah, they typically do. [17:31.310 --> 17:34.590] I go, well, that would make things a lot easier if I could see it in my head. [17:35.050 --> 17:36.390] But I can't. [17:36.550 --> 17:37.990] So not a clue. [17:38.850 --> 17:47.030] My earliest memory of something, if I think back when I was different because I had a Fantasia, it was in sixth grade. [17:47.150 --> 17:48.490] I don't remember much about sixth grade. [17:48.770 --> 17:57.050] But I do remember the teacher came up to me and asked me if I would draw for the newspaper, if I draw a picture of a cartoon of a frog. [17:57.970 --> 18:00.270] And I had no, I know what a frog looks like. [18:00.430 --> 18:02.790] I know what a cartoon of a frog, but I couldn't do it. [18:02.790 --> 18:07.070] But I had no clue where to even start or what it looked like. [18:07.290 --> 18:08.110] It wasn't a clue. [18:08.910 --> 18:12.570] But, if I had a picture there, I could have drawn it really good. [18:13.030 --> 18:15.190] If I had a picture in my mind, I could have done it. [18:15.670 --> 18:17.090] But, totally black. [18:17.250 --> 18:17.950] Could not have done it. [18:18.090 --> 18:18.550] Not a clue. [18:20.670 --> 18:21.470] Recognizing faces... [18:22.070 --> 18:23.290] I can recognize faces. [18:23.290 --> 18:23.910] It's really good. [18:24.190 --> 18:25.230] I've got a great... [18:25.230 --> 18:26.710] I can tell people's voices. [18:26.990 --> 18:28.070] I can recognize faces. [18:33.170 --> 18:33.970] This is what I see. [18:34.090 --> 18:36.330] Like if I close my eyes, I think about my kids. [18:36.430 --> 18:37.390] I can recognize my kids. [18:37.610 --> 18:40.930] But if I think about what they look like, are my XY's what they look like? [18:41.250 --> 18:42.110] This is what I see. [18:42.790 --> 18:43.490] Not a clue. [18:43.630 --> 18:44.290] I don't see anything. [18:45.310 --> 18:48.890] But if you ask me to describe their... I have not a clue. [18:49.250 --> 18:49.910] Not a clue. [18:50.090 --> 18:50.830] I can't do it. [18:51.050 --> 18:58.170] Like I can never understand... you know, see all these criminal sketch artists and people describe them, and they draw it and it looks like them? [18:59.690 --> 19:00.710] I couldn't do that. [19:00.850 --> 19:01.150] I don't know. [19:01.210 --> 19:02.250] I don't know how people did that. [19:02.330 --> 19:03.230] It's always strange to me. [19:03.410 --> 19:06.810] If you asked me to describe my... I couldn't. [19:06.930 --> 19:07.430] I don't know. [19:07.570 --> 19:08.550] I couldn't do it. [19:08.810 --> 19:13.690] And then if they tried to draw something, I wouldn't have an idea whether that was right or wrong. [19:13.950 --> 19:14.570] Not a clue. [19:15.270 --> 19:15.650] Yeah. [19:16.130 --> 19:17.830] So people with visitors, they can do it. [19:18.230 --> 19:20.970] Ah, aphantasia people can't do it, according to 4.0. [19:23.210 --> 19:23.590] Prosopagnosia. [19:25.150 --> 19:25.530] Prosopagnosia. [19:25.690 --> 19:27.250] It's a hard way to say prosopagnosia. [19:27.250 --> 19:32.710] That is not being able to... you see somebody and you don't know who they are. [19:32.810 --> 19:36.790] You don't recognize them because you see them, but you can't recognize them from their face. [19:36.930 --> 19:39.050] That's not the same thing as aphantasia, not at all. [19:39.570 --> 19:40.450] Oh, spoiler alert. [19:41.170 --> 19:41.950] Spoiler alert. [19:42.870 --> 19:45.450] From this video game, from 2010, 999. [19:45.750 --> 19:47.150] Nine hours, nine persons, nine doors. [19:47.610 --> 19:53.650] The killer, and he's the killer, in it, he had proto-whatever-aphantasia. [19:53.650 --> 19:57.370] And that's what he... that's what gave the clue that he was in. [19:59.350 --> 20:00.110] Recognizing surroundings. [20:01.010 --> 20:03.950] What I see, like, if I... I can see all y'all there. [20:03.950 --> 20:06.930] If I close my eyes, this is what I see in black. [20:06.930 --> 20:08.390] I don't see anything. [20:08.530 --> 20:15.670] Apparently, I'm told that most people, if you close your eyes, you still get a visual image of what you were looking at. [20:17.130 --> 20:18.530] I don't know what that means. [20:18.790 --> 20:19.610] I have not a clue. [20:20.070 --> 20:21.970] But this is the way my brain works. [20:22.070 --> 20:22.410] So I see that. [20:22.490 --> 20:23.370] I have no clue what that is. [20:23.570 --> 20:24.750] This is our cat, Bandit. [20:24.850 --> 20:26.830] Bandit's a... that cat is so scared. [20:27.130 --> 20:27.910] That's so scared. [20:28.110 --> 20:31.270] But you people that have cats, you know that... that cat... [20:32.270 --> 20:33.930] they know where every object is. [20:34.170 --> 20:36.230] She knows where every object in the room is. [20:36.230 --> 20:37.010] So he comes downstairs. [20:37.610 --> 20:42.370] If there's... if an object is gone, she'll go over and investigate why it's gone. [20:42.370 --> 20:49.970] Or if there's a new little object somewhere in a room, she'll see it and she'll go investigate it to see if, you know, if she can kill it or it can kill her. [20:50.190 --> 20:51.890] And she... then she just leaves it alone. [20:52.210 --> 20:53.030] That's amazing. [20:53.190 --> 20:55.070] So my... my mind is like... [20:55.070 --> 20:58.950] when you talk about visualizing objects, cats and spatial recognition. [20:59.750 --> 21:00.150] Question. [21:00.290 --> 21:02.590] I mean, do cats have aphantasia? [21:03.150 --> 21:04.590] I mean, really, does she... [21:05.050 --> 21:08.170] does she keep the objects in her mind or does she have the mental image? [21:08.510 --> 21:09.470] And how would you know? [21:09.470 --> 21:13.630] I mean, how would you figure out whether cats had aphantasia or not? [21:14.490 --> 21:18.130] I... I tell that to some people at work and they just laughed at me, but I was kind of being serious. [21:18.390 --> 21:25.910] I mean, if you can figure out a cat, maybe you could figure out a person and make sure they had aphantasia, and then you could have the different things for the chest. [21:26.190 --> 21:27.110] I mean, how could you tell? [21:28.010 --> 21:31.870] And there's different like questions, you know, is aphantasia familial? [21:32.090 --> 21:35.190] If anybody wants to do studies, this would be a great study to do. [21:35.190 --> 21:37.690] But first, you've got to be able to make sure they had aphantasia. [21:38.370 --> 21:39.990] Is it related to a gene? [21:40.210 --> 21:41.390] My guess is probably yes. [21:41.390 --> 21:43.070] It's not like a learned thing. [21:43.070 --> 21:44.150] It's probably related to a gene. [21:44.910 --> 21:46.330] The good patterns. [21:46.910 --> 21:48.350] So I think everybody... [21:48.350 --> 21:49.210] This is my speculation. [21:49.370 --> 21:50.510] I think everybody thinks in patterns. [21:51.330 --> 21:53.090] I really think in patterns. [21:53.150 --> 21:53.650] Oh my goodness. [21:54.150 --> 21:56.670] Do people with aphantasia excel with pattern recognition? [21:56.850 --> 21:56.990] Yeah. [21:57.670 --> 21:59.010] I mean, that's... [21:59.010 --> 22:01.490] I see everything in patterns, and I think in patterns. [22:02.650 --> 22:03.490] What about pathologists? [22:03.570 --> 22:06.030] One thing pathologists do, we get the biopsies from people. [22:06.330 --> 22:09.290] The doctors, you know, send us the tissue, and we look at it under the microscope. [22:09.830 --> 22:13.030] And so we're really good at pattern recognition. [22:13.650 --> 22:14.970] Pathologic cell pattern recognition. [22:15.270 --> 22:19.570] Yeah, and if we don't know what it is, we'll look it up in a book and say, oh, it kind of looks like this and stuff like that. [22:20.170 --> 22:27.430] So that being said, I have no idea what the slide looks like, but I can remember the sort of the details and stuff. [22:27.630 --> 22:28.430] It's kind of weird. [22:28.870 --> 22:31.350] So it's like pattern matching from pictures. [22:31.570 --> 22:32.850] I'm really good at that. [22:33.290 --> 22:34.490] In fact, if I see a... [22:34.490 --> 22:40.770] Like if I saw a picture of something of like a past specimen or something like that, I would remember that I've seen it before, like years later. [22:40.910 --> 22:42.730] I will remember that, and most pathologists do. [22:43.070 --> 22:43.790] It's kind of strange. [22:44.630 --> 22:46.350] Incidents of aphantasia and pathologists. [22:46.350 --> 22:49.990] I asked a couple of my co-workers about this, you know, give them the test. [22:50.710 --> 22:54.270] And they kind of said they had aphantasia, but I'm not so sure. [22:54.490 --> 22:56.030] So that's why I quit asking people. [22:56.250 --> 22:57.550] But that'd be an interesting thing. [22:57.990 --> 22:58.770] What about teaching? [22:58.770 --> 22:59.830] I've taught like forever. [23:00.790 --> 23:01.230] Organization. [23:01.470 --> 23:03.370] I'm really good at organization. [23:03.750 --> 23:04.330] Oh my God. [23:04.670 --> 23:05.790] Patterns and organization. [23:06.210 --> 23:07.950] And I love analogies. [23:08.110 --> 23:09.390] That's what I think makes a good teacher. [23:09.630 --> 23:13.550] I'm 24-7, always thinking about analogies. [23:13.650 --> 23:15.690] And would it help me explain something all the time? [23:16.690 --> 23:17.990] Patterns, patterns, patterns. [23:18.350 --> 23:21.010] That's what I think of, and I think that makes a good teacher. [23:21.590 --> 23:22.390] Do people with aphantasia? [23:22.410 --> 23:23.130] I think so. [23:23.750 --> 23:24.590] But not at all. [23:24.690 --> 23:26.130] But I think that's a good attribute. [23:26.690 --> 23:28.190] Incidents of aphantasia in teachers. [23:28.370 --> 23:30.350] Is it higher than the general population? [23:30.550 --> 23:32.050] I have no idea it would be interested in studying. [23:33.210 --> 23:36.730] Speculating on how aphantasia may create creativity in the hacker mindset. [23:38.850 --> 23:41.850] So, one of the people I worked with, I was telling him I was coming up here, did the thing. [23:42.070 --> 23:47.670] And he says, how can you give a talk about aphantasia at a hacker conference? [23:48.830 --> 23:49.110] Huh. [23:49.890 --> 23:50.790] That's a good question. [23:51.430 --> 23:52.110] That's a good question. [23:52.190 --> 23:52.310] Okay. [23:52.350 --> 23:53.290] So, that's the end of part one. [23:53.290 --> 23:55.010] So, that was me. [23:55.210 --> 23:57.710] And now we're going to part two. [23:59.750 --> 24:01.270] Google's going good so far. [24:01.670 --> 24:02.230] Part two. [24:02.630 --> 24:04.630] Aphantasia, hacking, and AI. [24:06.290 --> 24:07.790] Hacking and aphantasia. [24:08.110 --> 24:09.230] What is hacking? [24:09.570 --> 24:11.070] I know what hacking is. [24:11.070 --> 24:12.170] I know what I describe it. [24:12.270 --> 24:14.310] But I couldn't come up with a good definition. [24:14.310 --> 24:15.070] I tried to. [24:15.230 --> 24:16.830] So, I ran it by 4.0. [24:17.630 --> 24:18.290] 4.0. [24:18.430 --> 24:20.310] And it was kind of good, but I like this down here. [24:21.090 --> 24:21.450] Clever. [24:22.330 --> 24:23.470] I stole that word. [24:23.650 --> 24:24.290] That's a good word. [24:24.770 --> 24:25.130] Clever. [24:25.370 --> 24:25.890] So, I did that. [24:26.350 --> 24:28.810] Clever use of technology to do something cool. [24:29.330 --> 24:31.330] That's my idea of hacking. [24:32.310 --> 24:33.950] And it's pretty much software hacking. [24:34.090 --> 24:35.570] At least, that's what you can do other kind of hacking. [24:36.170 --> 24:37.890] But hacking networks and stuff like that. [24:37.970 --> 24:39.470] But that's kind of what I think of software hacking. [24:40.130 --> 24:42.610] My earliest software hack that I remember. [24:43.210 --> 24:45.530] It was back in 1977. [24:45.530 --> 24:47.170] When I was first year of med school. [24:48.130 --> 24:50.690] Back then, Pong had just come out. [24:50.810 --> 24:51.490] Like the year before. [24:51.710 --> 24:52.010] Pong. [24:52.130 --> 24:53.730] You know, we were all amazed at Pong. [24:53.870 --> 24:54.330] Oh, my God. [24:54.530 --> 24:56.050] But you can't play Pong that long. [24:56.530 --> 24:59.910] But in the 70s, late 70s, backgammon was a thing. [25:00.530 --> 25:02.130] I don't know if it's come back or something. [25:02.490 --> 25:03.310] It was a thing. [25:03.410 --> 25:04.610] We played backgammon all the time. [25:04.970 --> 25:13.730] And about the time, in the first year, one of the biochemistry professors, he had a 2D plot printer. [25:13.930 --> 25:14.930] 2D planet printer. [25:16.150 --> 25:19.750] And I asked him if I could have access to it because he could program it. [25:19.870 --> 25:20.750] And he said, yeah. [25:21.050 --> 25:23.150] So it's like, I remember it was 16K. [25:23.610 --> 25:24.930] The memory is 16K. [25:25.250 --> 25:27.830] I have no idea what the programming language was or not. [25:28.110 --> 25:32.430] But I programmed a backgammon game. [25:32.630 --> 25:35.270] On a 16K, on a 2D printer. [25:35.590 --> 25:36.910] It's like, oh my God, this is so cool. [25:37.050 --> 25:40.390] So I brought my friends up there to show them how cool this was, right? [25:40.390 --> 25:41.250] It's really, really cool. [25:41.710 --> 25:43.630] And it started playing backgammon. [25:43.770 --> 25:49.550] And about the third or the fourth move, my friend looked at its move and said, that's a stupid move. [25:50.350 --> 25:52.070] And I go, what? [25:52.250 --> 25:52.570] What? [25:52.690 --> 25:54.450] It's playing backgammon. [25:54.570 --> 25:56.250] And then he said, it's playing backgammon. [25:56.410 --> 25:57.430] It's like, oh my God. [25:57.770 --> 25:59.270] So it's like, wow. [26:00.090 --> 26:05.290] At least it didn't make an illegal move like the LLMs are doing when they try to play chess. [26:05.290 --> 26:07.670] It didn't make, it would have played a legal move. [26:07.750 --> 26:08.290] It might have been dumb. [26:08.450 --> 26:09.710] But it would have been illegal. [26:10.190 --> 26:10.670] Anyway. [26:11.590 --> 26:12.530] So hacking. [26:12.690 --> 26:13.770] Hacking takes I2. [26:14.050 --> 26:15.250] It takes a lot of things, but I2. [26:16.050 --> 26:17.530] Intelligence and imagination. [26:18.190 --> 26:19.210] And other things. [26:19.290 --> 26:20.250] Intelligence and imagination. [26:21.250 --> 26:24.530] Qualities found in people with aphantasia. [26:24.730 --> 26:24.870] Yeah. [26:25.630 --> 26:26.870] Intelligence and imagination. [26:27.670 --> 26:29.010] Hackers in aphantasia. [26:29.470 --> 26:31.550] Do people with aphantasia make good hackers? [26:32.070 --> 26:34.650] I think that would be a good study to do something like that. [26:34.650 --> 26:36.870] I think, from my own standpoint, yeah. [26:37.650 --> 26:39.510] Yeah, because I mean, it's an organizational thing. [26:39.570 --> 26:42.770] I can't see anything, so I've got to organize things really good. [26:42.990 --> 26:45.690] Not organize things concretely and all that kind of stuff. [26:46.610 --> 26:48.170] So my guess is yes. [26:49.070 --> 26:53.110] Incidents of aphantasia and hackers are probably greater than the national... [26:53.110 --> 26:53.570] I don't know. [26:53.890 --> 26:54.770] It would be interesting, Sonny. [26:55.270 --> 27:02.090] Maybe somebody, when you've got a good way, you could do a questionnaire maybe next year and pass it around and see what the results are. [27:02.270 --> 27:03.670] I'm not going to do it, but you could do it. [27:05.190 --> 27:06.750] Aphantasia versus AI. [27:08.110 --> 27:09.990] There is no A2 in AI. [27:10.250 --> 27:11.770] I always say there's no AI in AI. [27:12.090 --> 27:12.870] There's none.