Started with a babysitter when I was six years old. Slowly progressed to meeting new people. Eventually was taken around to many different people for their own personal use and enjoyment.Was programmed off and on from then on. I became somewhat of a boy toy for them to make money. I was flown to many places around the state and country. I met with many famous people. I was photographed and used in films as well.
Was used as the TOS "Temple of Set" boy who would make money for the cult and do their bidding. I have not been part of this cult and activity since I turned 20.
I was left with a warning (a gang rape) where I was either going to die or at least never talk. Well - I did not die.
And I am talking. But I do fear for my life as well as those around me. It is hard to have so much of my life that I am unable to talk about with many people. It feels like I have to hide myself.
They stole my childhood. They stole a lot of my life away. But their tactics were not perfect.
Through all the abuse I have been through and seen I am still here. Since then I have been diagnosed with multiple personality disorder.
I thank God that I am at least alive and doing better that I ever thought possible.
I even have a family of my own. And they are well aware of my life.
My true hope is to someday be able to spread my life story to those who will listen. Now all I can do is wait. But I at least am patient and bidding my time.
I know there will be a day when I will and can tell all. I hope sooner rather than later.
Of course this is a very small part of my life. There is plenty more to know about me.
But I am not a victim. I am a "survivor"!!!
Received 6-7 2003