Hello, I am a victim of electronic harassment who lives in Tennessee. to you. I am trying to find a support group, network associates, etc. I am highly sensitive to electromagnetic fields, as I believe that my house and car were rigged to make me subject to a lot of radiation. Even my bed, sofa, etc., as well as telephone, television and computer seem to be putting out abnormal amounts of radiation.
I have had the worse time of my life since July, 2003. The physical (burning (internal with some external scarring), voices (suggestions, threats, instructions), sleep deprivation, diet deprivation, isolation, etc.
The whole county/state seems to be in on my torture. However, I was recently advised that the perps will try to make you believe that they are responsible for natural occurrences as well. The perps told me that they had to make people hate me in order for them to do what they wanted to do to me, so I am subject to street theatres, gang stalkings, personal violations of all kinds. I've also been told that if I "submit", they would give me my family back. There also seems to be some importance in them being able to tell me where to go to church and now wants to threaten me if I go at all. All this in an attempt to make me appear to be backslidden when I have loved and served "the real" God all my life.
To me the abuse goes on 24/7. At first, it seemed to only happen Monday-Friday, but then, after awhile, it was pretty constant. During all of my waking moments my brain is under assault. That is, I don’t know what it is like to have a “quiet” moment. Although, some nights I get more sleep than others.
There is also this big thing about me not "telling", or read the Bible, or pray, or "preach-share my faith" So if I "TALK" too much, the persecution seems to heighten. I am constantly made aware of their monitoring presence. They constantly give me instructions, which I usually ignore. They really like to play "God and the Holy Spirit". I must admit, for a while I was deceived, but now, I am really skeptical about who's leading me.
I have lost my home due to an inability to obtain employment, though I have an associates degree in Office Administration, a bachelor's degree in Business, and a master's degree in Marriage and Family Therapy which I completed last May (2003). I really would like to be involved in some research. I've always worked for the underdog, now I am one, but would like to help make life better for those who come after me/us.
The perps tell me that nothing I touch will turn out right until I submit to their control. I am in ministry and refuse to be their slave in the pulpit or out of it. Some information that I got off of the internet about the perps, said they worship satan. I believe that, since one of my first instructions was "don't name the Name of Christ". I didn't have a clue what all of that was about, at first, however now; things are becoming much clearer, and points to the Second Coming of Christ. I sure hope it is soon. The perps also want me to accept horrible psychological and emotional abuse from people around me without complaining. I feel that I have had enough abuse in my life without willingly submitting to more. I cannot control the physical/emotional/psychological abuse that I receive from the cowards who hide behide behind my friends, family, computers, tv's, and telephones, but I don't have to take anything from everybody.
When I became aware of the torture last August (2003), I was told that this was Whistleblower training. I now believe, as I look back, that I may have been implanted for at least 10 years maybe 20. They told me that I was not to talk, but they didn't even want me to pay a compliment without repercussions. I spoke with one person who said they lived in Texas who told me that if I had even indirectly worked for the government that could make me a target. Well, I worked on a project that was federally funded at my former employer, which is when I believe I received most of the implants, I had five surgeries in three years.
During the third one the anesthesiologist introduced himself as Michael Sutton, but the name on his jacket read something else. The location of the feelings of the 'voices" in my head are consistent with an article that I recently found entitled "Radio Controlled Implants" as they are related to mind control.
I remember having a spinal injection....to alleviate what I was told was a ruptured disc in my neck. The physician seemed to having a hard time "getting it" as he put it, this injection just happened to be at the base of my brain stem. Secondly, I have a work related injury that took me two surgeries to get repaired, rt shoulder, after the second surgery the surgeon referred to the "keloid" on my shoulder, I NEVER keloid, and doesn't it take them a while to form, not IMMEDIATELY after surgery? After another surgery, I learned that the surgeon made an incision on my forearm, for a thumb surgery. His notes said he "harvested" a tendon that he "threw away". It took this site six weeks longer than the original operation site to get well. I could feel something in there, and still can for it stays tender to touch. I ended up going to the emergency room in another state for treatment and caught the treating physician on the phone when he should have been attending to my complaint. The last surgery I had was bi-lateral knee replacement surgery in which I recently learned that the articles used for the implants can also contain GPS monitoring devices.
I was almost "made" to go to my former employer's facility for rehab during which time I developed a sinus infection that was not treated until I asked for antibiotics after seven days. I was there for ten days. I suspected, but the article confirmed that I was probably implanted in my sinus cavity. They insisted on doing a CAT scan in which I was instructed to lay on my face rather than in the usual "on your back" position.
All of these surgeries were on the heels on some excruitiating pain, which now I wonder some of the pain was electronically induced just to get me into surgery. I also had to have a colonoscopy and the light ran down my esophagus after the knee surgery because of constipation problems, which I now know can also be electronically induced. I think I was implanted at these times as well. If you think this cannot be true, please let me know what you think this can be. Of course, I don't even hope to find a doctor that will confirm these implants, infact, I won't go near a doctor/hospital, etc., if I can help it at all. At least not in this state.
I do believe that the US gov has something to do with this, but many local entities are also involved. On two occasions I had crowns put on my teeth. After the first one the dentist use some clove tasting item, and I thought (but never spoke to anyone) about it. When I returned for my permanent crown, the dental assistant commented on what the clove taste was. Since that time, it seems that every time I open my mouth someone knows everything I say.
My family is also subject to this psychological torture/emotional abuse since the perps have made them believe that I have done things to hurt them and others. I just wish that my family did not have to suffer. It really makes me think little of them, especially as I see them even involve children in this mess. And they are sworn to Protect and Serve?????? Consequently, it seems that everyone, including my family is just waiting for me to succumb to the radiation and emotional/psychological abuse.
I can't get enough money together to relocate anywhere else, and I don't know where I could go to get away from them. They have followed when I went to visit family in Ohio and Indiana. They seemed to be everywhere I stopped along the Interstate.
I've had people tell me that they knew that my personality was being tempered with, that they were trying to make me look like I was crazy, that it was because of me being a Christian, etc. But if the government is responsible, and I never knew how many organizations are funded by the government until I start looking at grants, etc... I was told that I was being used to train a state, in which case the general public here is/may be afraid to speak out. Of course, I can't understand why some "Christians" have and do agree to participate in the atrocity. If it were them in my shoes they would want sympathy. Well, I hope I can help them through it if it ever comes their time to suffer like this.
I get the feeling that the perps are in constant contact with my family, telling them how to trigger me, etc. I also think they are using cochlear implants to hear my thoughts (the thoughts they put through my head for them to hear, or cellular phones. The perps say they are going to tell everything I have ever done, yet because it is a "SECRET", people only seem to be getting the perp's side and I have no way to defend myself since everyone denies knowing anything. It seems that I am on a "silent" trial and even family members make this suggestion. IT'S CRAZY. However, the perps tell me that if I will "submit", they will give me my family and my life back. Well, if they can do this, they can stop this and JUST GIVE ME MY LIFE BACK. It does anger me that I was allowed to run up a $23,000 school loan to earn that Master's degree (which was during the time that I had 4 of the 5 surgeries) and then have them keep me from finding employment that will allow me to pay them back.
What the perps do to me is constantly accuse me of things. I shared with a therapist, who I think may have been involved, that I hate being accused of things that I did not do and punished for them, without being allowed to defend myself. This happened to me by some significant people in my life as a child and as an adult, and have left some pretty serious scars. Well, this is the thing that the perps are using the most to inflict wound, after wound, after wound, and they are using people extremely close to me to do this. Of course all of the accusations are “in my head”, but people’s reactions to what I hear in my head are real. In fact, after I had to move out of my house (in the last two weeks), which was located right in front of the only perp that I could identify, I was told that my family would now become my persecutors. It seems that they want me to have a nervous breakdown so that they can rebuild me in THEIR IMAGE. There is a big push for me to take psychotropic drugs. Well, I'm already made in the image of GOD, and I thank Him for keeping me. I don't remember the last time I slept all night. It was at least 2 1/2 years ago. Before that, I woke up during the night but use a Tylenol PM substitute to help me sleep. I have taken a very potent sleep aide and they still woke me up. They really like to wake me up around 3-4 am and not let me go back to sleep any more. I recently read that the military have used these tactics on soldiers to keep them going while in the field.
I receive lots of "don't do that, don't read that, when I try to gather information. Infact, it is the self education that has prevented me from loosing my mind since I can't get anyone to validate that what I am going through is real. I have pictures of some of the burns that I sustained after sleeping on my mattress. My youngest daughter does, now, acknowledge what I am going through is real since I have been able to get her to read some of the articles. Most others refuse to even read the articles.
Actually, when I look back, I can see that what I thought was the 'devil" in 1996-1999, really was electronic harassment. They really like to blame the devil for their activities, although I know that he is their inspiration for such cruel and inhumane treatment of another human being. I was mildly (now I am horribly) harassed until I returned to the employment of a major university/mc in the area where I had worked for just over 13 years before I left, and returned after being gone just under 2 years. It was during the second employment there that I had the five surgeries, not at that facility, but most, if not all of the surgeons, had prior affiliation with that univ/mc.
Update 02-16-2005
I am highly sensitive to electromagnetic fields, as I believe that my house and car were rigged to make me subject to a lot of radiation. My bed, sofa, and other pieces of furnishing with springs seem to put out heat, the telephone; television and computer seem to be putting out abnormal amounts of radiation. I have had the worse time of my life since July, 2003
I have lost my home due to an inability to obtain employment, though I have three degrees. The perps tell me that nothing I touch will turn out right until I submit to their control. I am in ministry and refuse to be their slave in the pulpit or out of it. I didn't have a clue what all of that was about, at first, except they (the perps) said they wanted to CONTROL me.
I experience street theatres by people unknown and some well known. There is constant tormenting of my mind by the AUTOPIG and those other pigs. There are bruises on my legs and ankles (these began after I had bi-lateral knee replacement surgery), burns both visible and internal, I have clicking in my nostrils, tinnitus in my ear, they can make me fall when they want to, I've lost so much muscle mass around my shoulders that they are bony, thinning and loss of hair, a mock execution in which I felt the effects of being shot in the middle of the forehead, shown a coffin via virtual reality. The perps sometimes carry on conversations in my head as if I were a bystander. At other times, they flood my mind with what seems to be a pre-scripted scenario, or try to force my thoughts in the direction they want them to go. I have had many surgeries in the past five years, all on the heals of excruciating pain. I now wonder how much of that pain was a result of EMF harassment or mental manipulation designed to get me in surgery and have reason to believe that I have been implanted on several occasions.. Daily there are peoples names, faces and objects planted in my brain by subliminal means, constant threats of being killed by the perps or by the people the perps say are being taught/trained to hate me, and the beat goes on and on and on and on,
I have pictures that will verify some of the physical torture that I has suffered.
Received 12-21-2004