Barbara Hartwell

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January 4, 1999

Barbara Hartwell
Legal Defense and Research Fund
(for the protection of constitutional and human rights)
PO Box 832
Woodstock, NY 12498
E-mail:  babs7@ibm.net
Ph.#: 914-247-0058

To Whom It May Concern:

This letter is addressed to those who have requested information about my research and activism on behalf of human and constitutional rights. I have sent copies to friends, family members, aquaintances and professional associates who may wish to be informed of my current situation. As my testimony it has also been sent to individuals with whom I am not aquainted, who may be interested parties due to the larger issues involved.

I apologize for the "form letter". I simply had no choice, since time and resources do not permit me to address individual correspondence under the circumstances. I cannot make phone calls out of my immediate local area. Please forgive me for not contacting you sooner if you are someone whose calls or letters I have not responded to over the past several months. There is the possibility -due to tampering with my phone and mail- ( a regular occurence) that I may not have received your correspondence or phone messages.

I am a survivor of CIA black projects MKULTRA and Phoenix.

For many years I was utilized as a mind controlled operative and professional CIA asset. I was also used in some of their more bizarre paranormal and mind control experiments. In order for my "handlers" (perpetrators) to gain and keep some degree of control over me, I was subjected to "trauma-based programming" (read torture). It is not my purpose here (and I don't have the time) to explain these black projects. The best I can do is provide a broad overview in the hope that you amy gain some understanding of my situation. I believe it to be relevant that the CIA "runs in the family". I should make it clear that I mean no disrespect to my family members, nor to denigrate them nor implicate them in my own situation. I have learned, through my research and that of other investigators that there are a number of other survivors of these black projects who have one or more family members employed by the intelligence community. I believe that those who have researched these issues will understand. For now, that is all I will say on this matter.
 

Political Persecution in the USA:
A brief case history of Barbara Hartwell.

I went public with my situation in 1996. I am working on a book which outlines 12 years of research and a lifetime of relevant experiences. Since 1996, I have published articles on related matters in newsletters and website magazines. I have appeared on radio and TV programs with other survivors of government black programs, including ex-CIA agents. Private investigator Ted Gunderson was instrumental in endorsing my credibility as a survivor of these black projects. I have spoken publicly at several large conferences around the country. Although the consensus among survivors and researchers of these projects is that it is "safer" to go public, I'm not sure it has worked that way in my case. Nonetheless there is no going back. Unless I stay as public as possible about my situation it will only make things worse. I honestly don't see how my situation could get much worse, except that I could meet an untimely death before I am able to thoroughly document what I have been through.

In 1994 I "broke my programming" and began to recover specific and extremely traumatic memories of my involvement in these black projects. I broke this programming through prayer, not under regressive hypnosis nor other "deprogramming" methods. The perpetrators apparently underestimated my spirit, and the gifts of the spirit with which I have been blessed, as my spirit was the one -and most important part- of me they were never able to gain control of. It needs to be understood that memory erasure by the use of drugs, hypnosis, electronic means, or combinations thereof, is routinely used. Also, dissociative disorders (fragmentation of the personality) are attained through trauma-based programming. Basically this equates to physical and mental torture, something the CIA and their psychiatrists are experts at. I was also threatened by my 'handlers' that loved ones would be killed, should I reveal what I had been involved in. I was even programmed to commit suicide should I break my programming, an issue I struggled with for years (and which I have not yet totally resolved) not realizing that this was a "program" rather than any desire on my part to end my own life.

When I was able to gain corroboration of the existence of these projects and was recognized by certain people also involved I began to understand precisely the nature of my situation. Since that time (1994) I have been targeted for severe harassment by agencies of the U.S. government. This particular form of political persecution is not as uncommon as it may seem, but can be effective since the perpetrators operate on the concept of "plausible deniability" and some of the tactics used are extremely insidious.

My situation has reached life-threatening proportions. Accordingly I feel the need to disseminate what information I can before it is too late. Should my demise occur before I can finish documenting the full and explicitly detailed truth of what has happened to me, I hope that someone will take on the investigation and that I will be vindicated. My concern extends far beyond my own life; I am equally concerned about the others who have been victims of the atrocities committed, and those who would be chosen as victims-to-be.

Since 1994 I have been targeted for this harassment, designed to "neutralize" me: to prevent me from doing further research; to prevent me from exposing the truth (as far as I know it) about government black projects; and from engaging in activism to hold the perpetrators accountable for the extreme violations of human rights committed against me and many others. The ultimate goal of this harassment is to drive me to a total collapse, mentally and physically and/or drive me to suicide, as they have done to others who posed the threat of exposing and taking a stand against their wrongdoing. They have also been known to arrange "suicides" which in fact are assassinations. Unfortunately, it appears that they are very near reaching their goal in my situation, unless I am able to find the strength to keep fighting back and unless I am able to get the back-up I need.

(Those interested in learning more about systematic mind control, harassment and political persecution, please read : "Microwave Harassment and Mind Control Experimentation" by Julianne McKinney, available on the Internet. Look in search engines under "mind control". This is the most comprehensive report I've found and I have personally experienced much of what is documented there. Or contact the Freedom of Thought Foundation at http://www.azstarnet.com/~freetht. Write FOTF: PO Box 35072, Tucson, AZ. 85740-5072). "Operation Mind Control" by Walter Bowart may be ordered from FOTF.)

To encapsulate briefly, some of the methods which have been used in attempts to "neutralize" me are as follows: I have been the target of agents provocateur (situations too complex to be detailed here). I have been drugged. I have been poisoned. I have been abducted by government agents: They drugged me, shoved a cloth bag over my head then threw me in the back of a car. I have been hit with "exotic" and so-called "non-lethal" electronic weapons. I have been near death from these attacks on several occasions. (So much for "non-lethal".) My life was saved each time only by Divine Intervention. The perpetrators have vandalized my cars: brakelines cut; radiators punctured, tires slashed, etc. They have bugged my phones, homes and hotel rooms. (This was corroborated by a private investigator/electronic surveillance expert.) They have broken into my homes and hotel rooms, stolen documents and personal effects. They have stolen, tampered with and opened my mail. They have "rerouted" some mail, which I received as long as 2 years after it was sent. They have placed viruses on my computers and also remotely wiped out documentation, letters and files.(They do have the technology for remote access.) They have sent black helicopters to hover over my various places of residence for purposes of surveillance and harassment. The most extreme examples of aerial harassment were a low-flying military jet at tremendous speed, barely over rooftop level of the house (and which also targeted the house of a man who was at that time my bodyguard) and what appeared to be a "cropduster" which flew over and sprayed my car with unknown chemicals while driving with my bodyguard (a former air force man). This resulted in coughing, choking, lightheadedness and disorientation. I was unable to determine whether there were other effects to my health. The use (although not common) of these types of harassment tactics utilizing aerial vehicles was confirmed to me by a former CIA agent and military pilot.

One of the goals of this harassment is to destabilize every area of the "target's" life. The perpetrators also use sophisticated mind control technology to advance their agenda. For nearly 2 years I was under mind-controlled "house arrest" in motels. I was only able to escape from this situation when I was warned by a CIA operative that my life was in immediate danger. This was confirmed by Ted Gunderson, who had researched these black projects for many years. Ted Gunderson (FBI Senior Special-Agent-in-Charge, ret.) was instrumental in helping me escape from house arrest and helping me understand precisely the nature of my situation.

I also met other former government agents, (most notably CIA and NSA) who were able to provide corroboration of my situation and the systematic efforts being made to neutralize me. I was warned by these agents that since the perpetrators had not succeeded in neutralizing me through intimidation, their next step would be to arrange a way to "terminate" me- which would of course involve "plausible deniability". My only comment when I heard this was, "Let them take their best shot", since I would rather die with honor, fighting for my freedom than compromise with evil.

Unfortunately it does not end with me. Persons around me (including family, friends, associates) who are perceived as trying to provide support or assistance are usually targeted for similar (although usually far less extreme) harassment tactics. Both overt and covert tactics are used, some involving mind control. Some people received outright death threats should they continue to associate with me. Phones, offices and residences were bugged. Helicopters deployed. Microwave weapons. Surveillance vans. Etc.

In one of the more extreme situations, a SWAT team was sent to break down the door of a friend (a private investigator/surveillance expert) who had helped me to corroborate and document the harassment and surveillance of myself and other individuals who were professionally associated with me. This "raid" was done under false pretenses (naturally) and terrorized his wife, who was home alone at the time. Shortly after this incident this man moved to Florida, where he could not find work, despite his qualifications. He was also harassed by unmarked black helicopters. Last year he moved back to the Northeast, where he is now living with relatives, since his financial situation has deteriorated so badly.

Another man, a researcher of the New World Order and secret societies for 30 years, who expressed his willingness to help me and with whom I discussed my situation in person and on the phone immediately became the target of phone harassment and was subsequently "neutralized" by a series of suspicious events which caused him to lose his business. He was forced to find work elsewhere, where he became the victim of a very strange "accident" involving chemical exposure at his workplace, which totally debilitated him. He was hospitalized for two months, after which he was unable to work.

In several cases, friends who came to visit me from a distance had their cars sabotaged: radiators punctured; air let from tires or tires slashed; engines tampered with. The worst such situation involved the collapse of the rear axle while friends were following me in the car of another researcher, en route to a site where I was conducting research on military black ops. I was also told by a number of people that after the inception of their contact with me, they had serious problems with their phone lines and that helicopters were sighted near their homes, in some cases directly over the roof, clearly violating FAA regs. There are many more cases like this, too numerous to mention. I have given these examples because I need to make people aware that these are the types of dangerous harassment tactics being employed by the perpetrators.

Over the past 3 years, my life has rapidly deteriorated into a living nightmare. Every area of my life has been targeted: my finances; my professional activities; my personal and family relationships; my health. All these areas of my life are being effectively and systematically destroyed: all because I will not be intimidated by the perpetrators and because the single most important goal in my life is to keep fighting for freedom and human rights for myself and others. No matter how hard I have worked, everything I have attempted to do, including finding income-producing work, has been sabotaged by these perpetrators. My life has now degenerated into little more than a constant (24/7) vigil of "damage control" and a brutal struggle for survival. Most nights, I can't sleep more than a few hours. I have no free time; no leisure nor recreation; no social life. The friends I now have are only the few people who were willing to stand by me despite the harassment and apparent danger to themselves which seems to have come from their association with me.

Most of my income has totally dried up. I have been blacklisted from professional employment as a journalist in the mainstream media because those formerly paying me as a "self-employed independent contractor" were CIA front companies or their associates. My professional training in TV production and as a television journalist/talk show host was subsidized by CIA front companies. I was "groomed" to be a media representative (propagandist) for the "New Age" and "New World Order". As long as I was a mind-controlled operative I had no trouble earning a living. Now things have changed drastically. My agent submitted tapes of my cable TV programs to major networks. Their assessments of my talents were such that they told my agent I should be able to get a high paying job as a talk show host. But all such potential opportunities, for which I am eminently qualified, mysteriously fell through at the last minute.

I lost my job as a personnel counselor (independent contractor working only a few hours a week for a large monthly retainer) at a corporation (CIA front co.) because I refused to participate in such things as running an electronic surveillance program targeting their employees. I also refused to manipulate the employees by use of psychological personality tests which I had been trained to administer, to advance the agenda of the corporation (which involved mind control). Instead I urged the employees to fight for their rights. Despite the apparent "benefits" of this cushy job, which included limo transportation to and from the workplace, I quit this job because I could not have lived with the knowledge that my cooperation would do inestimable damage to innocent people who were employed by this company. Fortunately, during the time I was there, I was able to help a number of people with the ethical use of my training as a counselor and hypnotherapist. (Ironically I had been trained in the use of hypnosis many years before by a CIA psychiatrist).

When the harassment began (when they finally realized that I would not cooperate and allow them to get returns on their "investment" in me) I lost everything I had, including my house in Connecticut. I was forced to move to a motel, since I had no money for a security deposit on another house. During most of the past five years I have been without transportation, since my cars have been repeatedly vandalized by the perpetrators, forcing me to sacrifice other basic necessities to spend what little money I had on car repairs. Since 1994 I have lost 5 cars, due to this vandalism.

I once had a large clientele based in Connecticut and New York, who used my professional services as an astrologer, hypnotherapist and Jungian/spiritually oriented psychotherapist. Recently, in an attempt to get paying work by developing a new clientele, I printed and distributed new brochures which outline my services; which describe my professional background of over twenty years; which state that my work has been endorsed by the Jung Society in NYC and Westport CT, where I have lectured on astrology and Jungian psychology. Despite my qualifications, I have not been able to find even one paying client for the past three years.

Because I suffer from severe chronic health problems I am unable to work at a "normal" job involving regular hours. I have a congenital heart condition which has worsened over the years (especially under the stress caused by the relentless harassment of the past five years) as well as poorly understood and difficult-to-diagnose chronic diseases which result in a painful, debilitating complex of symptoms. My health problems prevent me from living a "normal" life or working on any regular schedule. Thus it's impossible to make advance plans for a particular day or time period, as I'm never sure when the symptoms will strike.

These health problems are now so severe that I am bedridden for days at a time. All I can do is take painkillers and try to rest. In the past few years, I have consulted three doctors who all told me that since the state of my health prohibits me from working at a "normal" job, if I had been employed by a corporation, I would be eligible for disability. But aside from my work as an "independent contractor" for front companies of the CIA, I have always been otherwise self-employed, therefore I do not qualify for disability. I have no health insurance and no money for medical and dental care. I have no doubt that most of my anomalous chronic health and dental problems stem from the bizarre experiments I was used in. (Involving psychotronics, implants, "hard-wiring" in the body, exposure to radiation and electromagnetic energy fields.) These health problems are exacerbated by the unrelenting stress I am subjected to in the form of constant harassment.

In October 1998, I was the victim of a car crash. My car was "totalled" and I sustained injuries to my neck (sprain of cervical vertebrae). I do not believe this was an "accident". The circumstances under which the incident occurred suggest that it was otherwise. The police report states that the other party was totally at fault. I have since been further incapacitated by these injuries. Although I have filed a lawsuit for personal injury, I have no idea when or even if I will be awarded a settlement. As a result of these injuries I am having a hard time with even the most normal tasks, especially lifting. I live alone with 8 cats whose care requires much time and energy. Since there is no one upon whom I can depend for help, my situation has worsened considerably over the past two months.

Over the past several years I have been up against these dire circumstances for the most part, all alone. I have lost most of the support I hoped would be available from family and friends. As any survivor of government black programs can attest, it is difficult to get others to even acknowledge the true nature of such a situation. Most people attribute little -if any- credibility to our claims. As far as collecting hard evidence to support our claims, it's next to impossible (although I continue to do all I can and have been able to document much of my testimony and some from other witnesses). We are up against a collective of perpetrators with tremendous resources, financially and technologically. The perpetrators are heavily invested in stopping the truth from coming out, at whatever cost to the lives of their victims, as well as their families and friends.

I have been ignored, neglected, abandoned and/or betrayed by some of my family and friends because it was apparently easier for them to believe that I am a "nut case", than to look at the facts, even when the truth is evident and despite the fact that they have witnessed the effects of my rapidly deteriorating health and the severity of the harassment I am under. In the typical tradition of "new-age pop-psychology" , they seem inclined to lay blame on the victim. Instead of offering support, some of these individuals have done more damage to me by meddling in my personal business and attempted manipulation. I have often been the recipient of unsolicited advice by people who know nothing about the real nature of my situation. They have repeatedly insisted on blaming me for things over which I have no control and/or attributing "mundane" explanations to events and situations which clearly stem from post-traumatic stress syndrome and continuing systemetized harassment.

I have been subjected to amatuer psychological analysis by some of these people (none of whom have qualifications in psychology). I have been told that I was: "delusional"; "co-dependent"; a "psycho"; "just paranoid"; That my physical symptoms were "all in my head". That I was "just feeling sorry for myself". I've been told to "get hold of myself". To "snap out of it". To "stop being so negative". To "get a job like everyone else". That "none of this is really happening". That "things would get better if I were a positive thinker". I've even been told that I was "possessed by demons" (although I have been attacked by demons, I'm certainly not possessed by them). I've been told that my problems would disappear if I would "get rid of those cats" (whom I love with all my heart, would never abandon and whom I consider to be family members). That I just have "bad luck".

I have even been told by more than one well-meaning but ignorant person that I "shouldn't let them [the government-sponsored goon squads] get to me". If I had a way to stop them from "getting to me" I would certainly have employed it long ago. However, when microwave/pulse beam weapons were hitting me through my windows, bringing on symptoms such as projectile vomiting, unbearable head pain, fevers, chills and cold sweats and even knocking me unconscious at times, it wasn't easy to do. Or when I have woken up with laser cuts on my body, having no memory of how they got there. I don't have the money to turn my home into a fortress, with electromagnetic shields, alarm systems, video surveillance,etc. Basically I am "outmanned and outgunned".

As a result of this insensitive treatment, and the extreme ignorance which seems to fuel it, I have become increasingly isolated from other people, simply because they do not understand, and apparently do not care enough to try to understand, although I have been explicit in my explanations regarding my situation. I have finally given up trying to explain or trying to get anyone to understand. It is exhausting and an exercise in futility. Self preservation dictates that I remove myself from those who would only make my situation worse, since they are not willing to help me (except under terms which are unacceptable and manipulative, usually involving a hidden agenda or "price tag") and since they have only treated me with disrespect, and even worse, with callous disregard.

Some of these former "friends" have even gone so far as to violate extremely sensitive personal confidences and to use information I confided to them in trust, to slander me and try to discredit me, and have succeeded in sabotaging some of the few relationships I had left, hurting innocent people in the "fallout". If you have been on the receiving end of these lies and malicious gossip, I ask only that you consider the source and suspend judgment accordingly. Slander campaigns are known to be among the more insidious weapons in the arsenal of the perpetrators. Some of those spreading this slander and misinformation are being used, through accessing defects and weaknesses in their character, in a Machiavellian strategy of "divide and conquer", meant to isolate the victim and rip away all support. It is heartbreaking to know that in many cases (including mine) even family members are exploited and hoodwinked as part of this strategy. All I can do is pray that those close to me who are being influenced to turn against me will be guided to see the truth and to realize how they are being manipulated to serve the agenda of these perpetrators.

There are a few people who seem to have some understanding of my situation. Some have provided what help they could. Some, I'm sure, would be willing to help if it were possible. Unfortunately, most of them are survivors of similar black programs themselves and as such are in similar circumstances to mine: financially ruined or struggling; in ill health; suffering from chronic depression and anxiety. These people don't have the resources to help others, since they are too busy just trying to recover and to stay alive.

Physically and emotionally I have reached the limits of my endurance. Due to ill health, financial destitution, severe unrelenting stress and harassment, and worst of all, being up against this all alone, I am near to a total collapse. My phone has been turned off twice in the last year because I could not pay the bills. A few months ago a man from the electric company came pounding at the door, threatening to turn off the power. I live in constant anxiety because I never know what will happen next, or how I will be able to come up with the money for basic living expenses. I have done everything in my power to change this situation, yet it only continues to grow worse, through no fault of mine, because my life is being destroyed by design. If this sounds paranoid, so be it; but I know there are other survivors of these black projects who can validate my testimony.

It has been my life's goal to do everything in my power to stop institutionalized oppression and tyranny. For over twenty-five years I have been committed to various forms of human rights activism. I have worked as a press representative for Amnesty International. I spent many years lobbying for animal rights, running an educational organization to promote compassion and respect for animals, and participating in wildlife rescue programs. I believe in a reverence for all life, animal or human.

It is only a matter of time until we are all living in a police state and under a tyrannical One-World-Government.....unless we do something to stop it. As retired FBI agent and private investigator Ted Gunderson has said many times on his radio programs: "Wake up America!"

Ted, who is one of my dearest friends, and one of the few people who understands my situation, has been working for the past 20 years, to investigate and expose the massive government corruption which is rapidly eroding our constitutional and human rights. He has been an investigator for F. Lee Bailey, who called him the finest investigator he'd ever known. Ted has personally investigated my case and helped me in every way he could. (Since he lives in Nevada and I live in New York this has not been easy.) Ted has come under even more extreme harassment than he was previously targeted for: because of his association with me. According to the NWO perpetrators of mind control, torture, and other abuses of human rights, Ted and I, working together, are "double trouble" and a major threat to their agenda. It seems they regard us as a "tag team" on the order of Public Enemy #1. These perpetrators are cowards, and as Ted and I know, if they expend so much energy targeting us for persecution, we must be doing something right!

Ted has hosted numerous radio and TV programs on the topics of government corruption, CIA MKULTRA, the New World Order, the Illuminati, Satanic Ritual Abuse, CIA drug-running operations, etc. He has personally investigated these issues and used his own money to fund many of the investigations, since the victims could not afford to pay him. Over the years, he has been the target of assassination attempts. His life was saved by Divine Intervention, just like mine. Fortunately, Ted and I have "friends in high places" and I'm not referring to the government!

The last I heard from Ted, he called me from a phone booth. His phone was shut off because he had no money to pay the bill. He has also lost his radio and TV shows due to lack of funding. He told me recently that he was "under investigation" by the FBI. He asked me and some other survivors he has helped over the years to write letters on his behalf to the director of the FBI. Ted retired from the FBI -in good standing- twenty years ago. But it seems he is now considered a "subversive" because he refuses to back down and to stop investigating and exposing the illegal, unethical, unconstitutional activities of this and other government agencies. I am on file with at least two government agencies that I know of (FBI and Air Force Intelligence) as a "terrorist" (!) Ted has been a target of character assassination, just as I and others have. Meanwhile, he has been responsible for saving the lives of many survivors (I'm included) and of children victimized by satanic ritual and sexual abuse. How many people are willing to put their lives on the line to tell the truth and do the right thing? All too few!

Tyranny is everyone's problem.
Please help by becoming part of the solution.

Ted and I have plans to create a new website magazine: The Gunderson/Hartwell Intelligence Report. We plan to publish articles based on our own research and that of other credible investigators, many of whom have gleaned their evidence from being "on the inside" : ex-CIA and other ex- government agents; survivors of black programs such as MKULTRA, Monarch and Phoenix Projects. We will offer mail order books, videotapes, declassified government documents and hard-copy intelligence reports on diverse issues, most importantly, things you need to know if you are interested in working to protect our constitutional and human rights.

Our website will be sponsored by The Legal Defense and Research Fund. The purpose of this organization is to raise money so that we can assist survivors of government black projects and mind control programs. To make educational materials available to the general public. To fund independently produced TV and radio programs and Web-TV. To provide resources for survivors to avail themselves of the appropriate therapies to get them out from under mind control and into recovery. To fund class action lawsuits against the perpetrators of mind control (such as the CIA) and other violations of human rights.

I am currently working as hard as I can to make this website a reality. It is one of the few things which gives me hope for the future, and the only way I see in which I can earn enough money to survive and keep doing the work I am committed to doing.

We need help to continue our work.

Financial contributions (no amount too small, no amount too large) to fund our website and various other endeavors, such as to get Ted's shortwave and satellite radio programs back up and running. Donations of equipment for research and production: computer equipment, software, photocopy machines, electronic surveillance equipment, scanners, video cameras, etc. etc.

Professional services:

Computer Programmers/experts; Attorneys (specialists in constitutional law, civil rights, etc. or those willing to do legal research on these issues) Psycotherapists, psychologists and psychiatrists (well-versed in trauma recovery, Dissociative Identities Disorder and/or the methodology of mind control programming). Private Investigators and law enforcement personnel concerned about civil/constitutional rights; Researchers interested in the issues presented here; Writers who publish articles and/or books on these issues.

Volunteers:

Anyone interested in helping with our research, website or other projects.

Agents provocateur and other infiltrators need not apply. (We've had enough of y'all!)

In closing, I will ask you to please consider these words:

"In a time of universal deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act." - George Orwell

"The price of freedom is eternal vigilance" - Thomas Jefferson

Thank you very much for your time and consideration in reading this letter, and may God Bless You.

Sincerely,

Barbara Hartwell